oh.emme.gee

jgn sebut, haram. :|

2011-11-04T19:51:00.003+08:00

"bring me a pigs heart and a glass of wine..."

singing that out loud would make the locals here go hmmm... like the time i sang hallelujah of paramore. had to quiet down a bit when that one word comes out especially when im singing it out loud cos it just seemed wrong. haha. OR i change the words into something more acceptable. dont get me wrong, i love these songs! but u know, i hate when the chorus bursts a word that u cant say it out loud then u just cant feel the song as much. but i gota say, it slipped outta my mouth during the live concert, LOL. the adrenaline just got into me i didnt notice till i said it. oh man. sorry.

LOL(lots of love),

junk of the heart

2011-11-04T18:41:00.003+08:00

YES PPL, ive finally hv a twitter. so shush or ill bite ur heads off!

nomnomnom :P

wait till i get the link n im dominating the twitter world! pshh.. im a loner, nvr gona happen.hah.

oh n guess wat i found which is raaad. :D

its not even close to anything dirty, so dont get ur hopes up on that. lol

hats off to the ladeh~

sleepless..

2011-09-20T03:40:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wish i had a sister to talk to. things are not getting any easier now but who is there to tell me that things are gona be fine. now im just tired of how things turns out. life was never meant to be easy but i guess it would be less of a burden if theres someone that sticks out for you. they wont be there for you all the time but its great enough if they're there on your toughest days. okay. lets just face it, no ones ever got everything they wish for and you're never gona be that lucky,kid.

too overwhelming

2011-09-14T13:34:00.005+08:00

i dreamt of her again. its the second time in just 2 weeks. i could still remember my heart pounding and tears rolling down my cheeks every time i wake up. i think it shows how much i fear of losing her. i never thought i was so attached to her knowing that we live so far away and we only get to meet twice a year max. the last visit was really heart-breaking.i felt like my heart dropped when i had to let go of her hand.my tears just kept rolling by then.
its like we are all just waiting. and it hurts cause no one can take her pain away. i know she spends her days now just wondering when allah will take her. thats what she asked me once and that really got me. i was speechless.
i miss her childhood stories and i would love to listen to all of them again. now shes just too tired to even talk. gasping air every time she finishes her sentences. sigh...
Mak, i hope you know that

we'll always pray the best for you. amin.

love,

i lived, i loved

2011-08-14T17:08:00.004+08:00

I wanna leave my footprints on the sands of time
Know there was something that, and something that I left behind
When I leave this world, I'll leave no regrets
Leave something to remember, so they won't forget

~Queen B~

sometimes i think of what will happen when my time comes.

what would be the things that reminds them of me?

what impact have i made in their lives? bad ones or good ones?

would the people i love be there with me till the end?

would i remain in their hearts and memories?

only allah knows.

its a scary feeling, not knowing what will happen a year later, tomorrow or even today.

but i really hope when its time, the people ive hurt have forgiven me, especially my family.

i apologize for everything ive done. may allah bless all of u. amin :)

to mak, please be strong. hang in there. we're all here for you. but, if it is time for you to go, we just want you to know that we love you from the bottom of our hearts and im sorry if i ever did anything to hurt you. may allah bless your precious soul and may u r.i.p in heaven. u remain in our hearts forever,mak <3

from ur granddaughter,

sending all my love to u,

marisa.

just let it go

2011-07-11T09:15:00.002+08:00

nice

in the end...

2011-06-25T23:09:00.005+08:00

you will be left alone and the only person you can trust is yourself.

aint it grand?

keep breathing.

2011-05-23T23:07:00.000+08:00

I want to change the world. Instead, I sleep.

I want to believe in more than you and me.

And all that I know is I'm breathing.

All I can do is keep breathing.

All we can do is keep breathing.

for the better part of me

2011-05-20T15:30:00.002+08:00

We all have a weakness
But some of ours are easy to identify.
Look me in the eye
and ask for forgiveness;
We'll make a pact to never speak that word again.
Yes, you are my friend.

We all have something that digs at us.
At least we dig each other.
So when weakness turns my ego up
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday.

If I turn into another,
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song!
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.

~incubus~

We all lose friends.. we lose them in death, to distance and over time. But even though they may be lost, hope is not. The key is to keep them in your heart, and when the time is right, you can pick up the friendship right where you left off. Even the lost find their way home when you leave the light on." ~ Amy Marie Walz

NUOO!!

2011-05-20T14:49:00.002+08:00

ITS SOLD OUT! arghh

T-T,

frankie

2011-05-18T11:12:00.005+08:00

pictures that reminds me so much of that awesome mag. :)

♥,

MAH

2011-05-18T10:59:00.004+08:00

good friends do not sulk and tell u theyre sulking. good friends just keep quiet cuz they know who u are.

thanks.

mhmm... :)

2011-05-17T19:55:00.000+08:00

2011-05-17T18:57:00.000+08:00

wtf.

2011-05-17T18:52:00.003+08:00

haha. i learn something new everyday.

xD,

haha. so true.

2011-05-17T18:35:00.000+08:00

:)

2011-05-17T17:45:00.004+08:00

ive wasted so much time worrying so much about it.

now i know the answers. thank u so much for making it obvious.

i may not know the real reason behind it but ive got a better view now.

and i aint wasting anymore of my precious time.

i'll live however i want to.

i know things change and nothing last forever.

it was great though. but if this is it, then i just gotta move on & stay positive.

my brother was right all along. thanx bro :)

xo,

soon

2011-03-16T02:30:00.002+08:00

So you lost your trust
& you never should have
No you never should have
But don't break your back if you ever see this
But don't answer that
In a bullet-prove vest
With the windows all closed
I'll be doing my best
& I'll see you soon
In a telescope lens
& when all you want is friends
I'll see you soon

M

safe

2011-02-19T11:15:00.002+08:00

Everything I say I say to me first
Everything I do I do to me first
So what, I lied I lied to me too
(so what?)
So what, I lied I lied to me too
Hold out for the ones you know will love you
Hide out from the ones you know will love you
You, you too
Dark you can't come soon enough for me

i lie to protect.
but when i do, you will never understand.
i keep and keep and keep
when all i wana do is let it all out.
it is hard. this is hard.
living so far from home, far from the ones i love,
i need someone, a shoulder to cry on.
but i dont think i can share it with anyone.
but i dont know if i can keep it any longer.
they wont understand either.
that is why, i choose to lie
to you,
to them,
and to myself.

fuck. this is stupid.
sigh

why cant u stay?

2010-12-21T18:45:00.004+08:00

ive lost that fire in me.
back when i was younger and theres always a rush of strong passion that took over me.
it could send shivers down my spine. i loved it. i forgot how that feels now.
why did it went away? i need it back. especially now.

i miss it.
M

got a notion that says it doesnt feel right

2010-12-11T16:25:00.002+08:00

I got a notion that says it doesn't feel right
got the answer in your story today
you gave me a sign that didn't feel right

so don't knock it, don't knock it, you been here before
so don't knock it, don't knock it, you been here before

i just wanted to know if i could go home
been rambling day after day
everyone says they don't know

so don't knock it, don't knock it, you been there before
so don't knock it, don't knock it, you been there before

i got a notion that says it doesn't feel right
i just wanted to know if i could go home

~

ive been drowning myself with loud music. it aint helping.
cant sleep right. cant think right.
my mood swings are starting. i rarely have them. shit. i feel like shit.
please make me stop thinking bout it. please calm me down.
im lost. i want someone to tell me that its gonna be ok.
2 months in the middle of nowhere is no joke. working there is so not a joke.
i know things are gonna change big time when it hits 2011. n im x even sure if its for better or for worse.
im not ready. how am i suppose to do this? im so screwed.

:'(
M

i have nunchuck skills! lol

2010-12-08T12:03:00.003+08:00

ok, this comment from this youtuber said it all

"Holy shit that orgasmic... Jizztastic... And All other sexual references"

that made me literally LMAO

boy u surprise me..
;)

you give me something

2010-12-08T11:49:00.002+08:00

boy, you give me eargasms!
talking bout gabe bondoc here. lol
damn~
i wana meet this sexy beast in person. :D

especially when he does that "grrr" at the mid of the vid. fucking sexy!

ok, cute version of wolverine

ive found my own wolverine tho.
n i love him to bits despite him driving me insane most of the time.
ok, ima stop before i start yapping bout gay stuff. haha

:)
M

its a boy thing

2010-12-08T01:54:00.003+08:00

Now i know. I've to keep reminding myself that they come from a different planet.
thanks Hitler for that awesome speech/convo whatever u call it. it cleared my mind on certain things that has been bugging me for quite a while now. Currently, its the adjustment period. at least thats what im calling it. i hope everything falls into place.
its just that sometimes the whole im-wondering-what-the-hell-is-bugging-u-at-the-mo-thing is driving me up the wall.

what do u want?
what do i want?
what do we want?
fuck, its messing up my brain cells.
all i can do now is just take it slow.
at least its not in that confused state Hitler said.

its ok. i can still breathe,
M

it starts today :)

2010-12-01T09:26:00.002+08:00

i dont know how it'll turn out.
but ill try my best to work it out.
i havent fully absorb this. it will take a while. i guess
its ok. take it slow.
trial and error perhaps?

:D
M

could u write a song for me?

2010-11-23T17:47:00.004+08:00

if you could, then i'd be amazed by that if you get most of it right. heh.
i dont think anyone gets it. im always in an emotional roller coaster ride. i would volunteer myself out of it only if i know how.
im sorry im driving you insane.
im sorry i dont open up easily.
im sorry im such a hard person to crack open.
i think every single day of my life is a Halloween party. i wear a mask everyday that im so used to it i dont even realize that im wearing it now.
i'll unmask it, if thats what you want. but it takes time. alot of time.
Im not asking for much, but i hope you'd be patient enough to wait while i get used to my own skin. lol

just so u know, i do love you with all my heart. and i appreciate u being there for me.
thank you
oh and sorry for being such a bitch lately
ha-ha. do forgive me please

:)
M

Moment of honesty

2010-11-22T15:32:00.003+08:00

stuck with this amazing song again. mhmmm :]

but i gota give thumbs up to lydia paeks cover of it. cant get enough of it too. ive srsly abused the replay button. haha

Why give up before we try
Feel the lows before the highs
Clip our wings before we fly away
I can't say I came prepared
I'm suspended in the air
Won't you come be in the sky with me

M

oneul bam namani apayo

2010-11-20T23:49:00.002+08:00

the fact that the same thing happens over and over again, it is sickening to my bones!
fuck, i want out!
:'(
M

maybe im just too lazy

2010-11-11T17:51:00.002+08:00

You went away
Cos you said that you can't stand me
So I went away
I was sure that you can't stand me
Well I don't think we have to be like this forever
Is there more to life than love and being together?

T&S
M
:)

bring it on!!! :D

2010-10-19T00:38:00.002+08:00

back on my feet and ready to moshhhhh suckassss!!! hehe
so, im still awake although im spose to be recharging my batteries.
to hell with that! im psyched bout 2mrw! but also half blur. is this really wat i think it is? :D
shudve held my tix instead of givin it to irf. so that i could soak in this whole situation.
3 hours of.....pure blissssss! wooots!

will have my eargasms in a few more hours,
M

2010-09-23T23:55:00.002+08:00

Dark, you can't come soon enough for me
Saved, from one more day of misery
Everything I love, get back for me now
Everyone I love, I need you now
~tegan and sara~

just stop for a minute and let me breathe. everything is so suffocating. just wait...
M

in case ill go there

2010-09-23T23:23:00.001+08:00

its ok. im sure i can do this :) insyallah..

i never told you

2010-09-19T11:58:00.003+08:00

i couldnt tell u that when u say those things, it hurts me even more.
i wished u knew. so u would stop all this. please :'(

M

call it off

2010-09-18T10:19:00.003+08:00

I won't regret saying this
This thing
That I'm saying
Is it better than
Keeping my mouth shut
That goes without saying
Call, break it off
Call, break my own heart
Maybe I would have been
Something you'd be good at
Maybe you would have been
Something I'd be good at
But now we'll never know
I won't be sad
But in case
I'll go there
Everyday,
To make myself feel bad
There's a chance
I'll start to wonder
If this was the thing to do
I won't be out long
But I still think it better if
You take your time
Coming over here
I think that's for the best
Call, break it off
Call, break my own heart
Maybe I would have been
Something you'd be good at
Maybe you would have been
Something I'd be good at
But now
We'll never know
I won't be sad
But in case
I'll go there
Everyday,
To make myself feel bad
There's a chance
I'll start to wonder
If this was the thing to do
I'll start to wonder
If this was the thing to do

hung up,
M

i caught myself

2010-09-17T09:30:00.001+08:00

i want my life back. please stop this.
please,
M

putting an end to this game.

2010-09-17T08:56:00.003+08:00

yesterday i was caught in the rain
holding hands with the past then it came
all the thoughts of you are in vain

when the suns down i hear my name
you wanna talk but i'm tired of your game
i'm warn down and can not hear a sound
boy you make we wanna

cry cry cry
when you tell me all your
lie lies lies
but when you hold me i could
die die die
boy you make me want to
cry cry cry

yesterday i was picking my brain
trying to find why you treat me this way
don't wanna fight, don't wanna hurt anymore
but there's moments i cannot resist
like when you grab me and give me a kiss
still something i'm knowing is missing
boy you make me wanna

cry cry cry
when you tell me all your
lie lie lies
but when you hold me i could
die die die
boy you make me want to
cry cry cry

when you're calling me i read between the lines
watching you operate all the games that we play
oh, i try to tell myself it will all work out right
but every time i see you
and every time i hear you i just

cry cry cry
when you tell me all your
lie lie lies
but when you hold me i could
die die die
boy you make me want to
cry cry cry

why do u have to do this to me? im tired of all this.
it hurts so much..
i want to run away. please let me. dont hold me down.
even if it hurts me even more to leave this but maybe its the only way.
sorry...i hope you can understand and appreciate my decisions.
bye,
M

FML

2010-09-17T02:50:00.000+08:00

im speechless this time

:'(
M

They echo me in circles

2010-09-16T03:42:00.002+08:00

Now I'm told that this is life
And pain is just a simple compromise
So we can get what we want out of it
Would someone care to classify

Our broken hearts and twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on

And run to them, to them
Full speed ahead
Oh you are not useless
We are just

Misguided ghosts
Traveling endlessly
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away

boo!
M

working on it

2010-09-15T10:32:00.003+08:00

"I've convinced everyone else that I don't like you
and that I don't want you anymore.
Now all I need to do is convince myself."

she said it right.
M

getting over my seasickness.

2010-09-09T13:05:00.003+08:00

I'm your shoulder I'm the quick drive over
Trying to fix your stuff, well I give up

Ooh, you never see me standing right in front of you

Sooner or later you're gonna come around
And you'll be sorry when you figure out

M

song about love gone terribly wrong..

2010-09-06T17:33:00.002+08:00

Maybe, if my heart stops beating,
it wont hurt this much
And never will i have to
answer again to anyone
Please don't get me wrong

Because i'll never let this go,
but i can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
but now i feel like i don't know you

alone,
M

why do i even care? sheesh...

2010-08-31T13:19:00.005+08:00

Honestly speaking, if thats what you want, why dont you go and work it out yourself?!
Your obliviousness is driving me insane!!! make up your fucking mind! GAWD...

GRRRR!!!,
M

happy birthday malaysia ♥

2010-08-31T01:04:00.003+08:00

So here i am, in my dorm, infront of the lappie with tons of assignments piling up when theres loads of people gathering at dataran merdeka right now to celebrate independence day. oh how i wish i could be there. honestly, ive never celebrate independence day in dataran merdeka. i would love to do it someday with a bunch of friends :)
my housemates are celebrating it by shouting and laughing their asses off watching 'vampire sucks'. hahaha.
i refuse to watch it cos i was planning to watch it in the cinemas with my besties before eid. we'll see.

gtg now.
cant wait for raya...
M

action kamen! haha

2010-08-28T10:04:00.002+08:00

my current crush ^-^

You are the best guy I could ever ask for
With you I'll experiance sides of life that will never leave me
It's just we've come to a time where our ways go apart
Maybe to meet up again probably not

Still I don't lie when I say I love you
But I'm a girl who needs some action
You are not my actionman anymore
Still I don't lie when I say I love you

Don't act like this comes as a shock
I know you noticed the fact in the corner of your mind
You told me many times you won't survive without me by your side
But please don't mistrust

Still I don't lie when I say I love you
But I'm a girl who needs some action
You are not my actionman anymore
Still I don't lie when I say I love you

Soon you'll hook up with the prettiest girl in town
and when you do I will feel a sting of regret
'cause the grass is always greener on the other side

Still I don't lie when I say I love you
But I'm a girl who needs some action
You are not my actionman anymore
Still I don't lie when I say I love you

Still I don't lie when I say I love you
But I'm a girl who needs some action
You are not my actionman anymore
Still I don't lie when I say I love you

I wish there were a way back
But I'm a afraid I can't find one

u told me to live the life?
i will :)
M

there u r. haha

2010-08-27T20:35:00.002+08:00

life is weird. a few weeks ago, i was talking bout my lost old friend and wondering how he's doin. I figured that i would never see him again and i got over it. wrong! there he is. hes doin pretty fine :D
i dont think he remembers me though. but at least i know hes still alive. lol

yeay!
M

exactly my point!

2010-08-27T18:43:00.003+08:00

weirdest video ever! xD but i love it nonetheless :D

Oh when I look to the shape of my heart,
it's seperated only by scars,
that cut in and cut out, or leave me without,
all a heart that functions at all.

And when I look to the shape of the sky,
I give thanks for this hollow chest of mine,
that I no longer feel, the great weight of ordeals,
that can make this life so unkind

If there's any love in me, don't let it show,
oh and if there's any love in me, don't let it grow

Oh when the wild was all covered by snow,
I forgot the colours that the grass tend to glow,
Oh the trees were all leafless, and lifeless and black,
and I wondered if the leaves could grow back

For your heart is like a forest, it grows,
and its the rain, but just the sun that lets it bloom,
and you don't know how it feels to be alive,
until you know how it feels to die

If there's any love in me, don't let it show,
oh and if there's any love in me, don't let it grow
If there's any love in me, don't let it show,
oh and if there's any love in me, don't let it grow

dont let it grow.
M

merci..

2010-08-21T10:42:00.001+08:00

it means a lot to me :)

pending

2010-08-12T20:15:00.002+08:00

A friend of mine said "just because you like it, it doesnt mean u can have it"
hmm... then should i just settle for second best? what if i dont want to? :(
if only u knew it does matter to me. and sometimes it hurts when u say certain things. but i cant say a thing because i want u to figure it out urself. if only u could open ur eyes and see everything in a new perspective.

if only,
M

...

2010-07-18T23:51:00.001+08:00

the love that brought me together has let me down, once again.
~bobo~

M

quirky funny funny

2010-07-16T08:56:00.002+08:00

I'll make you a mixtape that's a blueprint of my soul
It may sound grand but babe it's all you need to know
I'll make you a mixtape that will charm you into bed
It details everything that's running round my head

thanx fara :)
love the song.
M

found one.

2010-07-11T12:30:00.002+08:00

wolverine hair + dork + guitar = ♥

cute.

^-^
M

learn to

2010-07-11T00:12:00.003+08:00

LET GO.

M

just friends

2010-07-10T23:58:00.003+08:00

i just gota keep on moving and dont turn back. i know i can move on but sometimes i keep falling back to the same spot :(
oh dear please help me get through this. make me stop hoping. i'll get through it. i know i will. time will heal it. eventually..

M

♥

2010-07-02T16:27:00.003+08:00

I have a heart too
That can break and melt
Like everybody else
I have a heart too
That can be loved
That wants to be loved
By you

:(
M

hoping to stop this train.

2010-06-29T04:06:00.002+08:00

What did i do in a past life, oh to deserve this
Yeah the way I make myself
He's far too innocent to be a part of such a cruel world
And it is, and it is and it is

And so I'll go, yes I'll go, so I'll take that train and ride.
Hoping I can write her a rhyme, that might stop the tick of time
Get off this situation and feel fine,
Get off this situation and feel fine.

tick of time,
M

for u

2010-06-28T03:45:00.000+08:00

i am spongebob

2010-06-28T03:03:00.003+08:00

the kooks - in my opinion

only i can find
a little piece of my mind
take you out and we'd sit
beneath the moon of what i think
inside of you, i do see
you would love to be free
so take it now its your right
theres no need to fight

take a piece of my heart for you, take a piece of my love for her
take a piece of my heart for him, take a piece of my soul

i tried once again
to get my opinion up in their minds
their just far too blind
taking all of me and put it in the bottom of the sea if they were right

At the bottom of the sea,
spongebob

i wanted to be frank

2010-06-28T02:51:00.002+08:00

...but i couldnt.
because i am marisa.
i am not frank.

T-T,
M

(someone grew bigger balls than i did)

norah jones- what am i to you?

2010-06-05T11:53:00.004+08:00

What am I to you
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Vast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue

When you're feeling low
To whom else do you go
See I cry if you hurt
I'd give you my last shirt
Because I love you so

If my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I love you when you're blue
Tell me darlin true
What am I to you

Yah well if my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
Never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
Could you find a love in me
Could you carve me in a tree
Don't fill my heart with lies

I will love you when you're blue
Tell me darlin true
What am I to you
What am I to you
What am I to you

M

Decotti!

2010-05-25T20:39:00.006+08:00

that is one of the most cutest things on earth! lols.
i want a decotti.. :(
but its only available in japan. why do all the awesome things come from japan?!
and its so expensive to buy it online and ship it all the way here. ughhh...
ill get to japan soon. and buy me some decoden and cute pyjamas!

till then,
tataa~
M

plans for the weekend! :D

2010-05-25T18:11:00.004+08:00

sometimes when im bored, i re-read the blogs ive posted like 2 months ago. lol. and ill be thinking, did i really went through that and was that how i really felt bout it?? yeah.. i know. i find it ridiculous cos i spend more time re-reading it rather than updating a new post. xD and..facebook isnt helping at all. uh uh.. ive been abandoning my blog bcos of it. haha. it just cant be helped that its so easy to update there. write a sentence on that tiny box and click! oh, theres.. a comment! and reply...blablabla..click! see how evil facebook has become to other networking sites. even myspace became a victim of it. ive to admit that i left my myspace, my buzznet and soon to be abandoned(if this goes on) my blogspot. i aint joining twitter cos i can see the same future for it :P
why am i still yapping bout this? lol

anyways...

im going to youth 10 at pwtc this friday and sunday. hope to have a blast!
and ill be working on the 31st at baskin. i dont really need the money but this is a request from a friend. so, i cant say no -__-" u oweee mee!

i think im goin for urbanscapes as well since fara is goin. although tina cant cos she NEEDS to go to youth 10 due to her undying fan love for kei.. aigoo~ why do i keep doing all of this for my friends? as long as its not ridiculous requests, im on it.

so, anyone out there....DO COME TO YOUTH 10!!
to support our local scene(?)... Nah! just to have a chillax time with your friends.

c ya there! :D

love,
M

my baby my darling, ive been thinking of leaving~

2010-04-10T18:16:00.002+08:00

she & him - in the sun

always adore zooey deschanel :D

her dance is so cute and silly.lol

enjoy,

soaking in all the things ive missed

2010-04-10T15:32:00.009+08:00

i am back!!! i only have 2 days to top up my sleep and rejunevate me self. lols
my exams r in 10 more days i think. im so hyped up for it. eventho im not exactly ready but then i wanna get it over with fast!! and then...2 months of bliss will come my way. oh..LOVE

well, this past few months was all hectic but it was ok. the usual. but i think this sem is much more challenging. (more backstabbing bitches.LOL) but..ive to stay sane. like wat fara said "keep my emotions in check" then ill be fine. gotta make the best out of everything. like how i did kinda bad on my practical tests ystrday. iono my marks. but then oh well...life goes on :D

im all happy and chirpy today cos i overslept. i feel reborn!(surprisingly i x feel sluggish) sleep has never been sooo awesome. hihi.. after happily munching on cookies..i gotta head over to sunway. wee~

love,
M

marissss

2010-02-26T12:49:00.001+08:00

my cupid senget... save me...

T-T
M

rehtards...

2010-02-21T13:24:00.003+08:00

i mustve been a dude in my past life. cos ive got balls man.. LOL
(according to irah)

ill be missing ya, rehtards..
take care, love ^^

M

it wont hurt to smile...

2010-01-30T21:28:00.004+08:00

im trying to appreciate the little things, irah. it doesnt matter if people dont get me. i'll try to catch that bliss. wait, i dont have to try. ill just let it come naturally.

thanx &
love ya lots,
M

one year ago..when pigs & shit were cool~ xP

2010-01-23T22:53:00.007+08:00

JAC JAC AEIN!!!
look what ive found~

do u remember this? its *drum rolls* ULTRAPIG!!
caption says: SHIT..is what i do best! *wink*

i cant believe i kept it. =D
hahaha...y were we so retarded back then? creating ultrapig was one of the memorable memories i have in h.s.

ultrapig caption says: ultrapig saves the day!
couple's caption says: we love you, ultrapig

huhu..back then when theres nothing else to do than talk crap. so much fun~

i still remember that i told aein that ill take this pic and post it on my blog later. that was a year ago. (it took me this long to post it! lols) bianhe, jac aein ^^

i miss u aein... this pic will remind me of our time we spent together. *sobs*

when will i get to see u again? i DONT wana finally meet u when im old and wrinkly! xP

someday aein? i hope so..

T-T,

2010-01-22T20:43:00.003+08:00

ive come to realize that i miss blogging!!!

AND i realize that ive a total lack of discipline in keepg it up-to-date. *shoots self*

so...ive decided to just post pics if im busy. at LEAST one pic in a span of a week. assignments are piling up. and i just did 2 presentations last week. and ive a test on monday. and so many more individual and group assignments for PT pro. i am str-u-ggling... ToT

mum just came back from singapore. she bought me these! 2 cotton on cardigans AND uber sweet smelling body spray~

it is called..PLEASURES-blushing cherry blossom.

mmmm~~ i LOVE the smell!

its just irresistable..ive to make sure i x over spray it. gota buy more when i get there myself. durg CNY hopefully =)

currently my desktop picture-erin yawning. hahaha. it'll remind me of how much lack of sleep im havg in uni. ^^

*yawns*

attempts of trying to stay sane...

2010-01-22T20:17:00.004+08:00

i know this spose to be posted like aeons ago, BUT since i cant for many reasons. AND i really just had to let it out. so i saved it in micro office word. lols.

i miss them alot T-T

Title:Gens outing

Date:25/12/2009

So after half a year of hiatus, we finally meet up! =D

It was the most fun I had in months! I missed them all. Even though we’ve been apart for so long, but we haven’t lost our connection. I seriously don’t know what to do if I don’t have them by my side. I know this is turning gay. So what? I don’t do this all the time =)

Next year is gona be a busy year for everyone. Im gonna miss u guys so much!!!! T-T

Take care loves! Do ur best in ur studies. And u can always call/txt me if anything comes up. Or if ure just bored. Insyallah ill be there.

Wishing the best in everything that u guys do.

Stay happy and positive ^^

Btw, I’ll miss ur fics tsuteyna. Lol

I SMELL U!!!

2010-01-09T11:20:00.003+08:00

ive no access to the virtual world.. thus, i have no life here.
sorry blog. ive totally let u down.

rotting day by day,
M

feels like insomnia.. ooohh~~

2009-12-11T01:18:00.004+08:00

im sleepy but im keeping myself awake. u know y?
cos exams results are out!!!
AND i know that i couldve checked my results hours ago if it wasnt for the goddamn web traffic at the friggin site!!!!!!
gosh...
its o.k. mum said take it slow. its not like its running anywhere.
im just scared itll crash and had to shut it down like the thing that happened to ivy's minihompy.LOL
nah...uitm maybe slow but it still functions.

nerves are gettg me... eating every minute of my beauty sleep.

trying.to.sleep...
-__o *peek*

M

2009-12-10T23:24:00.006+08:00

my.blog.is.dead.

honestly, i feel sorry for it cos i have not been giving it much attention this past few months. or shall i say half a year. i updated like bits and pieces of stuff but never had time to make an actual post where i used to enjoy making them. busy is an excuse. lazy is the truth. Lol.
i often get nagged by RB -_-"
i actually have so much to write but normally i get ideas when im like in the car or.. walking at the mall.. or.. waiting for mum at the grocery store. well, random places. basically the kinda places that i cant get access to any internet connection.haha..
so when i get back, ive no mood to write. i would just let it pass.

well, if i would have to sum it all up. all i could say is that sembreak was awesome!! ^^
im enjoying every minute of it eventho im just stuck in my room or i had to drag my feet to the mall for an outing with my family.i dont mind movies or shopping =) the latest outing, we spent time watching dolphins and sea lions. yay..-_-" just the idea of it hurts my head. not cos i hate animals. dont get me wrong,I LOVE THEM!! always have a soft spot for animals. its just that the location for it is a bit unsuitable or unrealistic? outside a shopping mall.. like WHAA?? O.o the show was fine. i give 10/10 for the animals but 4/10 for that annoying presenter. damn,my ears were bleeding... we took a pic with the dolphin. its surprising that the pic turned out to be great =D normally pics taken by them are not my faves. this one is a winner. glad i decided to take em. ill have to scan it and show it to ya later.

here are some pics i took on my phone. blurry but u can still c the dolphin's amazing backflips!

i did mention sea lion rite? but ive no pics cos its in my other camera =/

later.later.. i still have time to update =)

annyong & jalja!,
M

sniff sniff

2009-11-04T11:35:00.006+08:00

currently in the exam mode... but i need some time out. soo, i am HOME now!! for just a day. i'll be back there tomorrow. i love home... hahaha
my next paper starts in 5 more days i think. everything is passing in such a blurr. i cant believe that im having my sem break in just 2 more weeks! the exams r like hell though. but...its my first. so, im just trying the best i can. i wana get all of this over with!!!
I can SMELLLL freedom in the air just 2 inches away~~
i can do this!
when the sem break starts ima hibernate in my room and then burn all the fats by swimming! IF i get someone to accompany me. im just preparing myself for my next sem. i hear it involves swimming. wicked!!

gtg now.
annyonghigasaeyo and c u guys soon!!!

assalamualaikum...

M

currently addicted to- park bom-you and i MV

hang in there..

2009-10-10T16:56:00.001+08:00

i havent update anything cos i have no life...
LOL. nah... its just cos my exams are coming.
will be back soon
sem break.

and KAROEKE!!!!

xP,
m

saranghae..
wish me luck.

=/ help*

2009-09-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

im in the middle of writing an essay bout 'my profile' for a psycho assignment.
I.AM.BLANK
O.O
i cant even start. but i had it all planned in my head early this morning. what to start with, how to make it interstg..blabla..
now im having a writers block! gah...
i think i dropped my brain when i was circling funan just now. dang it! i was never a good writer anyways. wouldnt that fact make it worse?
but i gota finish it by tonight!
stop blogging M!
cotton on is calling for you~
right..

fighting!

<3,
M

ARIGATO GOZAIMASU!!

2009-08-16T13:14:00.004+08:00

oh, btw, my bro's friend bought me a CARDIGAN FROM JAPAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*screams and jumps for joy*
I FREAKIN LOVE IT!!!!!
it looks like one of the preppy styles. its grey, white and pink/red lines. and its sooooooo soft~~~
hmmm....^^ and its wrapped in a TOKYO DISNEYLAND plastic bag. lols. im gona keep that too.
im so freaking happy that it came all the way from TOKYO!!!!
my bro told me its like from a harajuku shop collaboration with UNIQLO. i think.
uve no idea how much i squealed like a kid when i got it ^^ i mean, clothes is the only thing that i would never regret buying. EVER.
they say diamonds are a girls best friend, well, i say clothes are my BFF! hahaha
but i spend my money wisely.eventhough i look like i shop alot, but i always have some money left over for emergencies and i think like a 19283098 times before i buy something. hehe.
its been months since i last shopped. to get a sudden gift like this is just...THANK YOU!!! I LOVE YOU!!(i x know who bought this for me, but still kamsahamnida,chingguyo!)

AISHITERU! ,
M

that totally made my day =P
i'll post the pic of it soon. my phone ran out of battery and i 4got to bring my phone charger. *sighs*

a taste of BELLA

2009-08-16T00:34:00.002+08:00

i became bella for 4 days. hahaha
it was kinda fun but i got bored with it already. i mean whats the point of it all? its not like its going anywhere. might as well just tell the poor dude.lol.
yeah, so i did. yesterday.
i said "hey. r u still awake? btw, imnotbellaimmarisa. c u in class. bye!"
he just said "owh okay..bye"
i was like whaat???? thats IT?? seriously?? O.o??!
owhkay.......................................................................................................................................................
but it did take him a minute to process that. i think hes like blurr cos its out of the blue in the middle of the night. its already 12 i think. haha.

i srsly dont know what to expect but ok, is ok, i guess... this is so embarassg. how much i wish to god that i didnt do it in the first place. xP
i hope to god that it wudnt be sooo awkward in class l8r. fookatilant man!! ugh...
im such a fool...but its ok, i was just being friendly in the texts. i wasnt flirting or anything. so... this should be totally normal. rite?
get ur head straight, marisa! ive soo much assignments to work on. rite...

bye!

PABOYA! =/

I ♥ BELLA

2009-08-13T15:54:00.005+08:00

i am really annoyed by my uni's net connection. its really bugging the hell out of me.

im just gona update w/e I remember.aite?

1)im hungry cos im fasting and i smell maggy mee T-T

2)im in evil mode. Hehehe… I did like an evil plan yesterday. I sent an anonymous and VERY random text msg to a dude in my group. He doesn’t know it was me. Hahahaha..

Im gona stop doing it now. Not sure whether I wana reveal my identity or not. Since I was too persistent on NOT telling my name yesterday (which made him quite annoyed.lol.but hes a nice dude) so instead of guessing my name, he gave me a name – BELLA.

Lmao xp

His reason behind this is that he loves twilight and his fave character is BELLA.

Seriously, that totally cracked me up. And when he said he read all 4 books already I went XDDDDD

Uve got to be joking me man! (but he was not) so, I can only respect his utmost love for twilight and well, maybe go watch new moon with him xDDD

All I could think of is - MEL, I think u’ll like having him around(maybe) u guys can be gay over Kirsten Stewart.

He even said he memorized bella’s dialogues in the movie!!!! XDDDDD that almost made my stomach burst due to over-excessive lol.

Anyways, yesterday was fun. But im gona stop now cos I think my housemate has like a lil crush on him. So, im not gona make anyone mad…. Not a wise choice if uve to live in the same hse for 3 years with that person rite?

The only main question is, should I reveal who I am?

catch the next episode of Dr Evil.

till then..

xD,

puke!

2009-08-08T21:37:00.001+08:00

seriously i have so much to tell but ive so many assignments. something is not right with this week.
p/s:getting sick of mly songs

lols

sori.

anyong,
M

my brand of heroin~

2009-08-06T21:03:00.004+08:00

my fave pic of erin. hugging her fave bolster. we call it her heroin. cos she likes to sniff it. ALOT. she'll look really high after she did that. LOL. shes back home now. in singapore. miss her so much...T-T her cheeks are TDF (to die for)!

*yawns*

we did wax treatment the other day. and if u could interpret my face expression in this pic, u would know that it was....

bliss...

it brought me close to tears because its freaking HOT!! the wax is 50 degrees! i thought i burnt my hand. and we all had to do 6 layers of it. its not as pleasent as you think it is. although it was uber cool ^^ kekeke... i wish i could keep it but we had to give it back. sheesh... i wudve made like a wax museum in my room. lols

ok, i gtg now.

LOVES & HUGS,

to: my family,

my awesome buds~

irah,

tina,

fara,

mel,

amira,

nazatul,

irfaan,

jacq aein,

adrianna,

sean,

and others^^

neon pacifier

2009-08-02T08:02:00.005+08:00

im going back to uni now...T-T

one week passed so fast...

so my relatives came yesterday with their baby. erin ^^
shes sooooo kyowa! im not in the mood to write today so ill just post some pictures.aite?

mcm muka jepun.lols

omo~, so fatherly. lmao xp this is beyond weird..

the reason behind the title is cos erin has a transparent-clred pacifier. and its really hard to find. so, when ive my own babies, ima get neon coloured or glow in the drak pacifiers. it'll make my life easier. and its stylish too. i bet gd wud be proud of me. LOL

i think i can find it in like weird/quirky places in the streets of japan or something. they sell the most random stuff. which i love!

gtg now. wana go pinch my niece's cheeks before she heads back to s'pore.

ill update l8r,

psychopathic khun.lols

2009-07-31T17:34:00.002+08:00

i took a nap just now and had a nightmare that khun was a psycho killer and had a plan to kill me. he was a sweet but kinda introverted guy and lived under like the same hse/appartmt as i am. he made all my friends and family trust him and set up a trap to kill me. gosh...it was so scary and pretty graphic! one by one died...(thank god theres no one i knw there) blood..*ugh. but its like a movie only that im the main character. but despite all that, he looks hot being a killer. LMAO XD
thats y dont ever sleep during afternoons. u never know what satans will do to u.
turned my sweet khun to a nightmare -_-"

M

hyung and dongsaeng twins.kekeke

2009-07-31T10:02:00.005+08:00

i was searching for 2pm , then i found this!

rain and junho twins! i know they look the same but i never knew that even THEY know they look the same. lols. i think the first pic is quite new since that is one of rains latest hairstyles. im not a fan of rain but mum is. so i know lil stuff bout him.

i blog so much today. i think im trying to blog as much as i can before uni starts =( ong

till then,

anyong!

calling out to other bunnies...

2009-07-31T08:57:00.004+08:00

while my friends are busy moving their asses for 31st (have fun guys!) well, im just being a lazy bum at home.hehe. have to pack for college now.

currently addicted to:
THE WINK VENDING MACHINE!

currently drooling at:

lols. extreme fangirliness.

M

screeaaaaammmmmmmmsssssss

2009-07-31T08:06:00.007+08:00

2PM IS COMING TO MALAYSIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sungmin, rae byung, jac jac, naz, LETS GO!!! (gara gara go...)
ive just checked this website-http://k-popped.com/2009/07/jyp-sends-2pm-to-malaysia-for-2009-mtv.html

theyre coming for MTV asia awards 2009!! when is that?? ima search now. please let it be weekends or on holidays. cant wait to see them!

again&again&again...molla~
hahaha
sorry for the fangirly moment. im sooo excited =D=D

ohmygad, this pic is sooo wrong in many ways.lmao xP but i'll keep my bunny ears alert for any latest news. look at khun, chansung and junsu trying to pull off their aegyo style XD

*screeeeaaaaaaaammmmmmsssssssssssss*,
M

1 more day to go~ faints

2009-07-30T12:34:00.005+08:00

went to taipan yesterday with irfaan, rae byung and naz (or her alter ego-lani. lol) it was tons of fun. we get to catch up with each others activities. even in just 3 weeks, theres like lots to tell. and some of em even get some boy action.hahaha..

i miss hanging out with them... i wont be coming home next week T-T i know i'll survive but i hope i dont get too stressed there. theres so much things do. study, assignments, presentations..which i havent startd on any of em yet. did a lil bit of study tho.

ive found out that all speculations bout mel is untrue. because...

MEL IS BACK!!!! *smiling from ear to ear*

shes finally home! i cant wait to see her but i dont think i can cos of my tight schedule this week. especially weekends. and i know mum wudnt be too pleased to let me go out again =,( but i miss having all 5 of us together. we'll be as crazy as ever. ugh..this suck man. i wanna watch a movie with them (without the indian wanker). scream at the top of our lungs and sing along to alphabeat in mels car. do stupid stuff like we usually do. i miss all that fun. soon, i'll be back in my holy dorm -_-" *sighs*...i mean dont get me wrong. its ok there but theres just too many restrictions. i wana let loose but its like so uptight. i did promise to my parents that i'll get kick ass results (insyallah) so, i cant play too much or ill get left behind. i dont like the 'jgn duduk berdua2an" system there. cos eventho ur not 'berdua2an' there, ur just hanging out w guys AND girls, they'll still look at u differently. even if im dressing a lil different, stares and glares... u just cant escape from them. suffocating much.. i'll try to be good. ima create an alter ego like naz.hahaha

I WANT ALL 5 OF US TO HANG OUT!!

M

na jinja flyboy~

2009-07-28T16:39:00.003+08:00

im fasting today. its was so hard to wake myself up for sahur. i was too lazy to think of what to eat so i just cooked myself m'sias fave instant noodle- MAGGI. i ate 2 packets cos one was already open. someone tore it just to get the chicken seasoning inside -_-" what a waste.
and i know that instant noodles make u full for a short period of time. speaking of instant noodles, it reminds me of my roommate, she used to say that music produced by this generation are like instant noodles. u'll get addicted to it when u first here it but later it gets boring. its not fulfilling enough. that is sooo true!
so, im suppose to study today but tina came to visit me ^^ talked bout lots of korean-related stuff which i think if fara was here, it wudve been torture for her.haha. theres not much korean updates. big bang are too busy promoting stuff in japan. miss them. and i think GD cast a spell on me cos no matter how he is, he's still my fave boy in BB. tina said maybe i just like metros. i dont mind metrosexuals. NEVER ever transexuals. lols. nah, i just dig them stylish guys.hehe
ugh..3 more hours to go...
my bro ni tgh merepek lah kat tepi i.
Excuse us,
M

Dear Chirab,

2009-07-27T20:39:00.003+08:00

awesome pic of mel taken & edited by hazelnuts =)

mel, where are you? we miss u here... are you planning to live there for the rest of your life? did u change your malaysian citizenship to libyan without telling us?

melacke nesrine dreed, come home...

i know this is a random post.i was bored packing.

lols,

theres an attic! gasp

2009-07-27T13:00:00.005+08:00

the only feature of the house that i think is cool- the Attic
the door is so small. ive to bend down to enter. but i think im lovin it. mum wont let me have this room. but she said we can make it as bilik golek.lols. meaning its like a hang out room.

ive to start packing today. i dont want to~ i hate packing!

andwe! T-T

ive just saw my new house this morning. hmm...it felt just like any other houses ive seen/lived in.the structures are different but the feel of it is still the same. empty, dusty, smelly,..ugh... ive been moving so much that every house i live in is just a house. i dont consider it as my home. cos technically its not mine rite.its just a shelter for me to live in. since i was forced to move out of the house i loved when i was a kid, ive no heart at all for the houses that comes after it. i might sound cold saying this, but thats just how i feel. i made a vow to myself that i dont want to have any attachments to the houses that i'll live in future except if the house is my own. it would be easier to move if its like that. i think thats why ive never really decorate my room. its pretty much always empty and the walls are white. mum told me that its not appropriate to paint other people's house. and i dont drill my walls too. so i keep my room decos nice and simple. honestly, i dont like living like this. but what am i to do =/

soon, i'll buy a nice house for all of us to live in. nothing too grand. just a simple one. something that makes us feel like home. someday..

i dont care e.e.e.e.e~

2009-07-25T22:30:00.003+08:00

im finally here but everyone is busy. and im gona be busy packing too cos im moving soon..=,(
people have been talking bout the MTV world stage T-T i cant go cos ill be stuck at uni.
have fun guys.. *sighs*

jalja,
M

lets go party~

2009-07-25T15:39:00.004+08:00

this picture was taken yesterday in anatomy extra class. lols. we look so silly. izyan told us to pout our lips sexily but i dont think we did a great job doing it xP

anatomy was alot of fun. despite the fact that our lecturer didnt enter class at all, we actually had tons of fun studying and most of the time fooling around with the skeletons.hehe. there were 4 skeletons in the lab. everyone took their opportunity to take pix with them. i didnt cos it was too crowded with people. its like a freaking tourist attraction.

then, the class ended and we were on our way home when we heard rumours bout uitm going to close for a week! i was jumping for joy! it was the best news ive ever heard for sooooo long.. we waited till the official notice is out. they told us that the notice is already pasted in the faculty and the only thing that we have to wait for is for the notice to arrive at our college. but no one could wait that long so we all started packing and some girls living near our hse were screaming cos they couldnt blieve its actually happening.lols. to be honest, we've been waiting for sooo long for this day to come. i mean come on, uitm perak is closed, and then dungun, then arau. we were just praying that it would be our turn soon. and it is now! we were so happy bout getting a week of holiday till we forgot that the reason why we r havg leaves is bcos of the H1N1 virus. so, we stopped fooling around for a minute and did a small prayer to god wishing that its not us that will get the virus. then, after that, everything resumed to normal. hahaha

so now im home =D waiting for irah to come and visit me. ive been waiting since morning. since thats what she told me last night. "ill come in the morning" yeah rite. i soo know her.

some people still dont know that im back. hihi. its a secret for now

^^,

2009-07-25T14:29:00.003+08:00

-----this is suppose to be last thursday's post but i didnt have time to officially post it-----

Im in my room(dorm) now listening to 2ne1-I don’t care. my anatomy class just ended. Anatomy…-_-“ too much to memorize but its pretty interesting. My lecturer told me that we humans shouldn’t be too arrogant of ourselves cos if we tear the layers of our skin, we’ll see all the ugly formations of our muscles and organs cramped up under all those layers of so-called flawless skin.lols. then she started to show us the images of our whole body anatomy in her laptop. One by one, the skin and then muscles, tendons are revealed. Until the bones are left. If u look at the facial structures of the cardaver, *pukes* its so graphic! The muscle cheeks and eyeballs.Then the skull looked like its beaming its teeth at us.hahaha.. overall, anatomy is interesting but..u’ve to pay full attention. if ur mind start to wander, u’ll automatically fall asleep. And that’s NOT ACCEPTABLE in any class especially anatomy, kinesiology and physiotherapeutic skills. U’ll be black listed by the lecturers.

On Tuesday, health psychology class was postponed, we got some time to sleep. My first ever class that was postponed! It should be celebrated! lols. it was heaven~ but I was hoping there was class cos my seating plan was so strategic. It’s the ideal place to sit. *grumbles* -ive my reasons. ~.^

BEL was downright awful! I was pissed at the lecturer. She was being really unfair. Pilih kasih! I got so irritated with her behavior but I just decided to totally ignore how I felt. I just have to suck up and never let my feelings affect my studies. Nanti tak berkat lah pulak kalau marah2 ni. Kan? Hehe

Im gona try my best in my studies. Maintain professional. Learn to control my temper. And to always be patient. Since that’s what doctors are suppose to be great at other than being able dissect people without letting them die. Don’t ever let me cut open anyone or any animal. I would end up killing them/ it.haha..

So, its been 3 weeks since ive stayed here with other 7 human beings.=P its fun. But theres still lots to learn from this experience. Im sure god has lots of other plans and challenges to be thrown at me.yeah sure. Cant wait… but remember everyone, god(allah) would only give the challenges to us cos he knows that we could handle it. Allah would never want to make us suffer. his intention is to just make us learn from the mistakes we make and be tougher in future. It’s a Process of being an adult, I guess. Cant believe that im already in the starting point of that path. *deep breaths*

Yesterdays class was fun too. I had class with miss I. although shes strick but she can get pretty laid back at times. We had to form a group of 3 and create 7 types of exercise from fundamental and derived movements. this dude, K was fun to talk to. I practically did some ice breaking w the dudes in our group. They are so hyper! This A. guy, speaks such thick Kelantan slang, I don’t get most of the things that he said.lols. but the jokes they make are hilarious. ^^ talked bout this deadly insect that is famous in dorms. Its called charli/cali(?) im not sure how its spelled but that’s how u pronounce it. It secretes a type of liquid that can burn ur skin. That K. dude got it and I asked him bout it. He didn’t even get bitten. That thing just walked past him and now he has a huge scar from his hand to his elbow. Like a really long scar that I assumed that it was an accident wound. It practically itches like crazy. He got it last week. And now im close to freaking out cos my housemate saw it on her pillow the other day and im afraid that that thing would lay gazillions of eggs and attack all of us and we’ll all wake up with scars all over our body =S *gulp* I was dreaming bout it last nite. Lols

well, enough bout deadly insects. I wore my uitm batik today.lols

if u ask me why would I do such a thing. Well, the reason is pretty simple. My roommate & I are just too darn lazy to pick an outfit for today and if we did, we’ll end up staying up at night to wash our clothes. I don’t wana increase the amount of piles of clothes ive to wash. I wash by hand, ok. Its expensive and wasting my time to go wash it using the washing machine. Rm 2 for 7 kilos of clothes and it takes an hour for one wash. Uve to just sit there for an hour? Doing what?? Stare at the washing machine, looking at ur clothes spin simultaneously. Look at the person beside u and smile for the 10^th time in less than 20 minutes. Stare at my watch. Thinking that I would’ve used this time to blablabla…Zzzzz…not my cup of tea.

Wow, I wrote a lot today. Hahaha. My housemates are starting wonder how the hell can I write a freakin essay for my blog for almost everyday. And in English? Lols. It takes practice. Once I write, sometimes ive to remind myself to stop. and I know no one reads this but its like a satisfaction to write u know. It’s a form of expression. I need to start drawing too. Now I only draw body anatomy… for the sake of study, I will draw all of it with passion.

Ok, I guess that’s is for today class. Im done lecturing.haha

Love & miss all of ya,

u buat apa nih??!

2009-07-21T18:18:00.005+08:00

i didnt feel like blogging last nite cos i was too lazy to open the lock on my bag,fix the cable and charger, then wait till the main page of yahoo to load. ill cuss under my breathe for a gazillionth time, then it'll start to function properly. or maybe not at all. yess...this is what they call internet connection here -_-" ive just found out that we r only allowed to enter youtube,myspace,facebook and other entertaiment related web pages on working hours only for mondays to fridays. weekends is unlimited =) but im always home by then. i miss home T-T
last weekend, we had LDK activities. it was 1/4 boring,1/4exciting, 1/4 brain,wash, 1/4 semangat kerjasama bdak2 uitm. meaning its like a mixture of everything. it wasnt that bad. there were fun games. well, there was this one part where we had to write a will. yup...ive to admit, i think i cried a whole river.lols. everyone did. the faci made us close our eyes and imagine that one day, maybe i had an accident and died before i get to see my parents and ask for their forgiveness. it was a really tough thing to imagine urself in. the whole class was quiet.some started to cry. i couldnt hold my tears when she played this indonesian song. u know how indonesians can get so religious in their songs rite.and the song was about death. sighs..
she asked us if we wanted to read our letter to the whole class. yeah rite! i wrote mine in eng + malay. they might look at me differently.yeah well, i kept the letter. hehe
ive so many to tell u guys but i cant. i need to sleep. ive therapeutic exercise,english and electrophysical agents tomorrow. need to revise the notes.
gosh, ive so much to tell! haih...
its the meaning behind this posts title and it includes a dude ^^ maybe later. ill meet u guys this weekend if i can and ill try to stay awake. ok?
bye.
love ya,
M

2 more weeks.

2009-07-18T23:32:00.003+08:00

im beezay! and sleepay~ i was in d middle of doing a CITU(p'didikan islam) assignmt. my team-(which is my hsemates) have to do a presentation bout hukuman qisas. gosh, ive long forgotten bout all the hukums and facts and all that.sheeshh..i gota start brushing up on my agama. i cant imagine myself talking infront of 65 students. O.O
i know ill have the worst tummy olympics in the whole 18 yrs of my life. i hope i dont puke

~.~,
M

maknae's boom boom pow!

2009-07-17T13:19:00.003+08:00

she totally rock the stage! shes only 16/17 yrs old and she could dance like that. im sooooo impressed.

im at home for while. thats y theres a youtube post here. i cant access to youtube in uitm,remember. so im just chillaxing for awhile. ill be back in uitm before 7pm. cos ive a koko meeting at 8.45pm. =(

what kind of underwear are you?

2009-07-17T06:59:00.002+08:00

im friggin boxers! yeah!! ;)

Quizzes Girls Games

its my fourth quiz and i cant get enough of it. its fun. since im stuck here. what else would i do to pass the time other than do blogs and quizzes. the tip is dont do the boring ones. do the stupid quizzes cos it makes me lol when the results comes out.hehe =P

^^,
M

yawns

2009-07-17T06:11:00.003+08:00

im already up since 5 am. i had to wake myself up to take my sahur. hmm..
and now i cant sleep. so i decided to try the net connection at 6 am. since normally it is just inconsiderably surrlooowwww. i think now its pretty ok.
im searching for fun quizzes to pass the time. i found 'which country are you from?'
im irish!! lols
the answer makes me laugh cos i had this incident before where back then (i think a few years ago.cant remember) i was soo into nora roberts circle trilogy books. it was so epic!! and the places in the books are mainly ireland and its obvious that the characters are speaking full irish rite. so i was really into that book till one day, i started to speak and have the same accent as them. hahaha. i still remember how irah was laughing her as off when she heard that. altho its like one of the most foolish things i would ever do and i i would repeatedly tell myself not to ever do it again but its still one of the memories that i would never forget. its just a stupid thing that only you and ur friend understand, ya know?
im gona go pray now. till then.
saranghae,
M

i wana be a polarbear..=(

2009-07-16T20:59:00.003+08:00

its just not my day today. i x know. im feeling rather down and pissed bout alot of things. im starting to get grumpy. i think way too much now. and im startg to get REALLY ANNOYED with my laptop. i feel like smashing my head on the wall. the net connection here sucks! my laptop is so OKU. i need some distractions. if not, ill breakdown.soon. im tired.im exhausted and constantly hungry T-T and i cant simply eat cos i need to save money to survive cos theres no ATM here. i need sometime alone. i wana go into a deep sleep for 3 days. i need to freaking hibernate.
overall, today sucks.
maybe its just my hormones.lol. i need to stabilize it.
anyways, im gona start fasting tomorrow. ganti puasa.since theres no class 2mrw. im going home for awhile and get back here at night =,( *sobs*
ill get used to this soon. i hope.

M

buttcrack!

2009-07-15T18:37:00.004+08:00

todays class was..umm..u know. always unexpected.u never know whos gonna be the next victim to be 'exposed' to the class.each day a new body part is revealed. im not joking. todays body part is the lower back which consist of glutemus maximus which is the scientific term of ze buttocks! lols. ok, just a quarter of it is revealed. all of the girls gasped. the guy(the male model) turned so red cos he didnt know the teacher was gona do that to him .he had a look like he was violated by that teacher. oh, i forgot to mention. ive an ehem..'australian' teacher. she sounds so poshhhh.. hahahahaha. shes not australian lah. shes malay (celup australian) she spaeks with such thick accent and always repeats the word "yeeahhh..." in every sentence. at first i couldnt even concentrate cos ive the urge to lmao when she speaks. when she ckp melayu pekat plak tu! haha.

my friends are startg to comment on my latest posts that i write malay more than usual. its scary man. ive to admit it is. cos im startg to think and form sentences in malay instead of english.my brain is like auto-malay. OMG*screams*
it does not sound like a bad thing rite? cos its my own roots and all. but u know, to me, i gota keep it all balanced. i cant just hang on to malay. its not complete. so, as a reminder, i take a few steps of precautions for myself to remain sane before i turn full auto-malay. first, ill try to find any source of english like form newspapers or net articles, story books and pay attention and participate in my BEL(english) class. 2nd, i try to converse with my friends in uni occasionally in english. they are willing to try. so, ill use these opportunities. next, ill write more in eng.like keep a journal or blog whenever i can. ill think of the others later. u guys can give me some tips too. pleaseee...

oh, another thing, since im like a city/suburban girl, im kinda like weird to my housemates here. im the only one who eats usg fork and spoon. (i cant help it. im sooo used to it.even at home) i dont understand or speak their slang/loghat. ill normally look at them with that really blur expression and then theyll know that i x get what they r sayg.whatelse? umm.. my mix nationalities= msia+s'pore. theyll ask bout how its like to live in the suburb area. which place to go shoppping. then they start talking bout their hometowns and kampungs which ive never been to.(never had a kampung in my 18 yrs of living in this planet) never terjun sungai, never ride motocycles, never walk in paddy fields, never eat tempoyak, budu, (the tradisional foods) never even taste some of the fruits theyve eaten. since they have orchards in their hometown.
they'll normally talk bout it and sometinmes teach me new kelantan terms. its so hard to pronounce! but i tried. i still fail. lols. they told me to teach them english. well,im not good with teaching but ill try.

well, i gota go now.
my roommate is continously yapping while im writing here. so i cant really concentrate. thus, the overflowing crapping. ok.
ive a taklimat in dewan angsana tonight at 8.45. and i havent showered. so..turra!

love ya,
m

im home..hmm..^^

2009-07-11T23:20:00.003+08:00

im really sleepy now. but im trying to keep myself awake so that i can spend more time watching youtube.lols. im welcoming my 2nd newborn baby(new laptop) to the world~ =D
i think its okay for now. im still not used to it since its new. im scared if i press smthng it will go haywire.haha. like just now when i pressed the wrong button and it went to hybernation mode. it totally scared me.hahaha..
i read the manual and it doesnt say much.especially bout which button i should press to control the volume.it was starting to piss me off but i had to remain calm. dahlah ngantok kan. mmg testing my patience btul.

so anyways,ive just had one week of classes. im taking 7 subjects i think. so far, anatomy and physiology is the toughest, ive to start studyg like crazy from now cos the final exam will be coming soon.maybe lpas raya. the lecturers told us that we have to score high marks for sem 1 & 2 so that our CGPA for sem 3 wudnt be in such a bad shape. cos sem 3 wud be tough as hell (THAT they informed us too..-_-")
thanks for the warning.
im starting to get restless due to mosquto bites here. so, i gtg

ciao,
m

sorry my posts are startg to get boring. i did warn ya guys-random updates rite.