got a notion that says it doesnt feel right

I got a notion that says it doesn't feel right
got the answer in your story today
you gave me a sign that didn't feel right

so don't knock it, don't knock it, you been here before
so don't knock it, don't knock it, you been here before

i just wanted to know if i could go home
been rambling day after day
everyone says they don't know

so don't knock it, don't knock it, you been there before
so don't knock it, don't knock it, you been there before

i got a notion that says it doesn't feel right
i just wanted to know if i could go home

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ive been drowning myself with loud music. it aint helping.
cant sleep right. cant think right.
my mood swings are starting. i rarely have them. shit. i feel like shit.
please make me stop thinking bout it. please calm me down.
im lost. i want someone to tell me that its gonna be ok.
2 months in the middle of nowhere is no joke. working there is so not a joke.
i know things are gonna change big time when it hits 2011. n im x even sure if its for better or for worse.
im not ready. how am i suppose to do this? im so screwed.

:'(
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