safe

Everything I say I say to me first
Everything I do I do to me first
So what, I lied I lied to me too
(so what?)
So what, I lied I lied to me too
Hold out for the ones you know will love you
Hide out from the ones you know will love you
You, you too
Dark you can't come soon enough for me

i lie to protect.
but when i do, you will never understand.
i keep and keep and keep
when all i wana do is let it all out.
it is hard. this is hard.
living so far from home, far from the ones i love,
i need someone, a shoulder to cry on.
but i dont think i can share it with anyone.
but i dont know if i can keep it any longer.
they wont understand either.
that is why, i choose to lie
to you,
to them,
and to myself.

fuck. this is stupid.
sigh