jgn sebut, haram. :|

"bring me a pigs heart and a glass of wine..."

singing that out loud would make the locals here go hmmm... like the time i sang hallelujah of paramore. had to quiet down a bit when that one word comes out especially when im singing it out loud cos it just seemed wrong. haha. OR i change the words into something more acceptable. dont get me wrong, i love these songs! but u know, i hate when the chorus bursts a word that u cant say it out loud then u just cant feel the song as much. but i gota say, it slipped outta my mouth during the live concert, LOL. the adrenaline just got into me i didnt notice till i said it. oh man. sorry.

LOL(lots of love),

M

junk of the heart

YES PPL, ive finally hv a twitter. so shush or ill bite ur heads off!

nomnomnom :P

wait till i get the link n im dominating the twitter world! pshh.. im a loner, nvr gona happen.hah.

oh n guess wat i found which is raaad. :D

its not even close to anything dirty, so dont get ur hopes up on that. lol

hats off to the ladeh~

M

sleepless..

sometimes i wish i had a sister to talk to. things are not getting any easier now but who is there to tell me that things are gona be fine. now im just tired of how things turns out. life was never meant to be easy but i guess it would be less of a burden if theres someone that sticks out for you. they wont be there for you all the time but its great enough if they're there on your toughest days. okay. lets just face it, no ones ever got everything they wish for and you're never gona be that lucky,kid.

M

too overwhelming

i dreamt of her again. its the second time in just 2 weeks. i could still remember my heart pounding and tears rolling down my cheeks every time i wake up. i think it shows how much i fear of losing her. i never thought i was so attached to her knowing that we live so far away and we only get to meet twice a year max. the last visit was really heart-breaking.i felt like my heart dropped when i had to let go of her hand.my tears just kept rolling by then.
its like we are all just waiting. and it hurts cause no one can take her pain away. i know she spends her days now just wondering when allah will take her. thats what she asked me once and that really got me. i was speechless.
i miss her childhood stories and i would love to listen to all of them again. now shes just too tired to even talk. gasping air every time she finishes her sentences. sigh...
Mak, i hope you know that

we'll always pray the best for you. amin.

love,

M

i lived, i loved

I wanna leave my footprints on the sands of time
Know there was something that, and something that I left behind
When I leave this world, I'll leave no regrets
Leave something to remember, so they won't forget

~Queen B~

sometimes i think of what will happen when my time comes.

what would be the things that reminds them of me?

what impact have i made in their lives? bad ones or good ones?

would the people i love be there with me till the end?

would i remain in their hearts and memories?

only allah knows.

its a scary feeling, not knowing what will happen a year later, tomorrow or even today.

but i really hope when its time, the people ive hurt have forgiven me, especially my family.

i apologize for everything ive done. may allah bless all of u. amin :)

to mak, please be strong. hang in there. we're all here for you. but, if it is time for you to go, we just want you to know that we love you from the bottom of our hearts and im sorry if i ever did anything to hurt you. may allah bless your precious soul and may u r.i.p in heaven. u remain in our hearts forever,mak <3

from ur granddaughter,

sending all my love to u,

marisa.

just let it go

nice

M

in the end...

you will be left alone and the only person you can trust is yourself.

aint it grand?

:|

M

keep breathing.

I want to change the world. Instead, I sleep.

I want to believe in more than you and me.

And all that I know is I'm breathing.

All I can do is keep breathing.

All we can do is keep breathing.

M.

for the better part of me

We all have a weakness
But some of ours are easy to identify.
Look me in the eye
and ask for forgiveness;
We'll make a pact to never speak that word again.
Yes, you are my friend.

We all have something that digs at us.
At least we dig each other.
So when weakness turns my ego up
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday.

If I turn into another,
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song!
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.

~incubus~

We all lose friends.. we lose them in death, to distance and over time. But even though they may be lost, hope is not. The key is to keep them in your heart, and when the time is right, you can pick up the friendship right where you left off. Even the lost find their way home when you leave the light on." ~ Amy Marie Walz

M.

NUOO!!

ITS SOLD OUT! arghh

T-T,

frankie

pictures that reminds me so much of that awesome mag. :)

♥,

MAH

good friends do not sulk and tell u theyre sulking. good friends just keep quiet cuz they know who u are.

:)

thanks.

mhmm... :)

wtf.

haha. i learn something new everyday.

xD,

M

haha. so true.

:)

ive wasted so much time worrying so much about it.

now i know the answers. thank u so much for making it obvious.

i may not know the real reason behind it but ive got a better view now.

and i aint wasting anymore of my precious time.

i'll live however i want to.

i know things change and nothing last forever.

it was great though. but if this is it, then i just gotta move on & stay positive.

my brother was right all along. thanx bro :)

xo,

M

soon

So you lost your trust
& you never should have
No you never should have
But don't break your back if you ever see this
But don't answer that
In a bullet-prove vest
With the windows all closed
I'll be doing my best
& I'll see you soon
In a telescope lens
& when all you want is friends
I'll see you soon

M

safe

Everything I say I say to me first
Everything I do I do to me first
So what, I lied I lied to me too
(so what?)
So what, I lied I lied to me too
Hold out for the ones you know will love you
Hide out from the ones you know will love you
You, you too
Dark you can't come soon enough for me

i lie to protect.
but when i do, you will never understand.
i keep and keep and keep
when all i wana do is let it all out.
it is hard. this is hard.
living so far from home, far from the ones i love,
i need someone, a shoulder to cry on.
but i dont think i can share it with anyone.
but i dont know if i can keep it any longer.
they wont understand either.
that is why, i choose to lie
to you,
to them,
and to myself.

fuck. this is stupid.
sigh