why cant u stay?

ive lost that fire in me.
back when i was younger and theres always a rush of strong passion that took over me.
it could send shivers down my spine. i loved it. i forgot how that feels now.
why did it went away? i need it back. especially now.

i miss it.
M

got a notion that says it doesnt feel right

I got a notion that says it doesn't feel right
got the answer in your story today
you gave me a sign that didn't feel right

so don't knock it, don't knock it, you been here before
so don't knock it, don't knock it, you been here before

i just wanted to know if i could go home
been rambling day after day
everyone says they don't know

so don't knock it, don't knock it, you been there before
so don't knock it, don't knock it, you been there before

i got a notion that says it doesn't feel right
i just wanted to know if i could go home

~

ive been drowning myself with loud music. it aint helping.
cant sleep right. cant think right.
my mood swings are starting. i rarely have them. shit. i feel like shit.
please make me stop thinking bout it. please calm me down.
im lost. i want someone to tell me that its gonna be ok.
2 months in the middle of nowhere is no joke. working there is so not a joke.
i know things are gonna change big time when it hits 2011. n im x even sure if its for better or for worse.
im not ready. how am i suppose to do this? im so screwed.

:'(
M

i have nunchuck skills! lol

ok, this comment from this youtuber said it all

"Holy shit that orgasmic... Jizztastic... And All other sexual references"

that made me literally LMAO

boy u surprise me..
;)

M

you give me something

boy, you give me eargasms!
talking bout gabe bondoc here. lol
damn~
i wana meet this sexy beast in person. :D



especially when he does that "grrr" at the mid of the vid. fucking sexy!

ok, cute version of wolverine



ive found my own wolverine tho.
n i love him to bits despite him driving me insane most of the time.
ok, ima stop before i start yapping bout gay stuff. haha

:)
M

its a boy thing

Now i know. I've to keep reminding myself that they come from a different planet.
thanks Hitler for that awesome speech/convo whatever u call it. it cleared my mind on certain things that has been bugging me for quite a while now. Currently, its the adjustment period. at least thats what im calling it. i hope everything falls into place.
its just that sometimes the whole im-wondering-what-the-hell-is-bugging-u-at-the-mo-thing is driving me up the wall.

what do u want?
what do i want?
what do we want?
fuck, its messing up my brain cells.
all i can do now is just take it slow.
at least its not in that confused state Hitler said.

its ok. i can still breathe,
M

it starts today :)

i dont know how it'll turn out.
but ill try my best to work it out.
i havent fully absorb this. it will take a while. i guess
its ok. take it slow.
trial and error perhaps?

:D
M