psychopathic khun.lols

i took a nap just now and had a nightmare that khun was a psycho killer and had a plan to kill me. he was a sweet but kinda introverted guy and lived under like the same hse/appartmt as i am. he made all my friends and family trust him and set up a trap to kill me. gosh...it was so scary and pretty graphic! one by one died...(thank god theres no one i knw there) blood..*ugh. but its like a movie only that im the main character. but despite all that, he looks hot being a killer. LMAO XD
thats y dont ever sleep during afternoons. u never know what satans will do to u.
turned my sweet khun to a nightmare -_-"

M

hyung and dongsaeng twins.kekeke

i was searching for 2pm , then i found this!

rain and junho twins! i know they look the same but i never knew that even THEY know they look the same. lols. i think the first pic is quite new since that is one of rains latest hairstyles. im not a fan of rain but mum is. so i know lil stuff bout him.

i blog so much today. i think im trying to blog as much as i can before uni starts =( ong

till then,

anyong!

M

calling out to other bunnies...

while my friends are busy moving their asses for 31st (have fun guys!) well, im just being a lazy bum at home.hehe. have to pack for college now.



currently addicted to:
THE WINK VENDING MACHINE!





currently drooling at:





lols. extreme fangirliness.

M

*screeaaaaammmmmmmmsssssss*

2PM IS COMING TO MALAYSIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sungmin, rae byung, jac jac, naz, LETS GO!!! (gara gara go...)
ive just checked this website-http://k-popped.com/2009/07/jyp-sends-2pm-to-malaysia-for-2009-mtv.html

theyre coming for MTV asia awards 2009!! when is that?? ima search now. please let it be weekends or on holidays. cant wait to see them!

again&again&again...molla~
hahaha
sorry for the fangirly moment. im sooo excited =D=D



ohmygad, this pic is sooo wrong in many ways.lmao xP but i'll keep my bunny ears alert for any latest news. look at khun, chansung and junsu trying to pull off their aegyo style XD

*screeeeaaaaaaaammmmmmsssssssssssss*,
M

1 more day to go~ *faints*

went to taipan yesterday with irfaan, rae byung and naz (or her alter ego-lani. lol) it was tons of fun. we get to catch up with each others activities. even in just 3 weeks, theres like lots to tell. and some of em even get some boy action.hahaha..

i miss hanging out with them... i wont be coming home next week T-T i know i'll survive but i hope i dont get too stressed there. theres so much things do. study, assignments, presentations..which i havent startd on any of em yet. did a lil bit of study tho.



ive found out that all speculations bout mel is untrue. because...

MEL IS BACK!!!! *smiling from ear to ear*

shes finally home! i cant wait to see her but i dont think i can cos of my tight schedule this week. especially weekends. and i know mum wudnt be too pleased to let me go out again =,( but i miss having all 5 of us together. we'll be as crazy as ever. ugh..this suck man. i wanna watch a movie with them (without the indian wanker). scream at the top of our lungs and sing along to alphabeat in mels car. do stupid stuff like we usually do. i miss all that fun. soon, i'll be back in my holy dorm -_-" *sighs*...i mean dont get me wrong. its ok there but theres just too many restrictions. i wana let loose but its like so uptight. i did promise to my parents that i'll get kick ass results (insyallah) so, i cant play too much or ill get left behind. i dont like the 'jgn duduk berdua2an" system there. cos eventho ur not 'berdua2an' there, ur just hanging out w guys AND girls, they'll still look at u differently. even if im dressing a lil different, stares and glares... u just cant escape from them. suffocating much.. i'll try to be good. ima create an alter ego like naz.hahaha


I WANT ALL 5 OF US TO HANG OUT!!


M

na jinja flyboy~

im fasting today. its was so hard to wake myself up for sahur. i was too lazy to think of what to eat so i just cooked myself m'sias fave instant noodle- MAGGI. i ate 2 packets cos one was already open. someone tore it just to get the chicken seasoning inside -_-" what a waste.
and i know that instant noodles make u full for a short period of time. speaking of instant noodles, it reminds me of my roommate, she used to say that music produced by this generation are like instant noodles. u'll get addicted to it when u first here it but later it gets boring. its not fulfilling enough. that is sooo true!
so, im suppose to study today but tina came to visit me ^^ talked bout lots of korean-related stuff which i think if fara was here, it wudve been torture for her.haha. theres not much korean updates. big bang are too busy promoting stuff in japan. miss them. and i think GD cast a spell on me cos no matter how he is, he's still my fave boy in BB. tina said maybe i just like metros. i dont mind metrosexuals. NEVER ever transexuals. lols. nah, i just dig them stylish guys.hehe
ugh..3 more hours to go...
my bro ni tgh merepek lah kat tepi i.
Excuse us,
M

Dear Chirab,

awesome pic of mel taken & edited by hazelnuts =)

mel, where are you? we miss u here... are you planning to live there for the rest of your life? did u change your malaysian citizenship to libyan without telling us?

melacke nesrine dreed, come home...

i know this is a random post.i was bored packing.

lols,

M

theres an attic! *gasp*

the only feature of the house that i think is cool- the Attic
the door is so small. ive to bend down to enter. but i think im lovin it. mum wont let me have this room. but she said we can make it as bilik golek.lols. meaning its like a hang out room.

ive to start packing today. i dont want to~ i hate packing!

andwe! T-T

ive just saw my new house this morning. hmm...it felt just like any other houses ive seen/lived in.the structures are different but the feel of it is still the same. empty, dusty, smelly,..ugh... ive been moving so much that every house i live in is just a house. i dont consider it as my home. cos technically its not mine rite.its just a shelter for me to live in. since i was forced to move out of the house i loved when i was a kid, ive no heart at all for the houses that comes after it. i might sound cold saying this, but thats just how i feel. i made a vow to myself that i dont want to have any attachments to the houses that i'll live in future except if the house is my own. it would be easier to move if its like that. i think thats why ive never really decorate my room. its pretty much always empty and the walls are white. mum told me that its not appropriate to paint other people's house. and i dont drill my walls too. so i keep my room decos nice and simple. honestly, i dont like living like this. but what am i to do =/

soon, i'll buy a nice house for all of us to live in. nothing too grand. just a simple one. something that makes us feel like home. someday..

M

i dont care e.e.e.e.e~

im finally here but everyone is busy. and im gona be busy packing too cos im moving soon..=,(
people have been talking bout the MTV world stage T-T i cant go cos ill be stuck at uni.
have fun guys.. *sighs*

jalja,
M

lets go party~

this picture was taken yesterday in anatomy extra class. lols. we look so silly. izyan told us to pout our lips sexily but i dont think we did a great job doing it xP

anatomy was alot of fun. despite the fact that our lecturer didnt enter class at all, we actually had tons of fun studying and most of the time fooling around with the skeletons.hehe. there were 4 skeletons in the lab. everyone took their opportunity to take pix with them. i didnt cos it was too crowded with people. its like a freaking tourist attraction.

then, the class ended and we were on our way home when we heard rumours bout uitm going to close for a week! i was jumping for joy! it was the best news ive ever heard for sooooo long.. we waited till the official notice is out. they told us that the notice is already pasted in the faculty and the only thing that we have to wait for is for the notice to arrive at our college. but no one could wait that long so we all started packing and some girls living near our hse were screaming cos they couldnt blieve its actually happening.lols. to be honest, we've been waiting for sooo long for this day to come. i mean come on, uitm perak is closed, and then dungun, then arau. we were just praying that it would be our turn soon. and it is now! we were so happy bout getting a week of holiday till we forgot that the reason why we r havg leaves is bcos of the H1N1 virus. so, we stopped fooling around for a minute and did a small prayer to god wishing that its not us that will get the virus. then, after that, everything resumed to normal. hahaha

so now im home =D waiting for irah to come and visit me. ive been waiting since morning. since thats what she told me last night. "ill come in the morning" yeah rite. i soo know her.

some people still dont know that im back. hihi. its a secret for now

^^,

M

-----this is suppose to be last thursday's post but i didnt have time to officially post it-----

Im in my room(dorm) now listening to 2ne1-I don’t care. my anatomy class just ended. Anatomy…-_-“ too much to memorize but its pretty interesting. My lecturer told me that we humans shouldn’t be too arrogant of ourselves cos if we tear the layers of our skin, we’ll see all the ugly formations of our muscles and organs cramped up under all those layers of so-called flawless skin.lols. then she started to show us the images of our whole body anatomy in her laptop. One by one, the skin and then muscles, tendons are revealed. Until the bones are left. If u look at the facial structures of the cardaver, *pukes* its so graphic! The muscle cheeks and eyeballs.Then the skull looked like its beaming its teeth at us.hahaha.. overall, anatomy is interesting but..u’ve to pay full attention. if ur mind start to wander, u’ll automatically fall asleep. And that’s NOT ACCEPTABLE in any class especially anatomy, kinesiology and physiotherapeutic skills. U’ll be black listed by the lecturers.

On Tuesday, health psychology class was postponed, we got some time to sleep. My first ever class that was postponed! It should be celebrated! lols. it was heaven~ but I was hoping there was class cos my seating plan was so strategic. It’s the ideal place to sit. *grumbles* -ive my reasons. ~.^

BEL was downright awful! I was pissed at the lecturer. She was being really unfair. Pilih kasih! I got so irritated with her behavior but I just decided to totally ignore how I felt. I just have to suck up and never let my feelings affect my studies. Nanti tak berkat lah pulak kalau marah2 ni. Kan? Hehe

Im gona try my best in my studies. Maintain professional. Learn to control my temper. And to always be patient. Since that’s what doctors are suppose to be great at other than being able dissect people without letting them die. Don’t ever let me cut open anyone or any animal. I would end up killing them/ it.haha..

So, its been 3 weeks since ive stayed here with other 7 human beings.=P its fun. But theres still lots to learn from this experience. Im sure god has lots of other plans and challenges to be thrown at me.yeah sure. Cant wait… but remember everyone, god(allah) would only give the challenges to us cos he knows that we could handle it. Allah would never want to make us suffer. his intention is to just make us learn from the mistakes we make and be tougher in future. It’s a Process of being an adult, I guess. Cant believe that im already in the starting point of that path. *deep breaths*

Yesterdays class was fun too. I had class with miss I. although shes strick but she can get pretty laid back at times. We had to form a group of 3 and create 7 types of exercise from fundamental and derived movements. this dude, K was fun to talk to. I practically did some ice breaking w the dudes in our group. They are so hyper! This A. guy, speaks such thick Kelantan slang, I don’t get most of the things that he said.lols. but the jokes they make are hilarious. ^^ talked bout this deadly insect that is famous in dorms. Its called charli/cali(?) im not sure how its spelled but that’s how u pronounce it. It secretes a type of liquid that can burn ur skin. That K. dude got it and I asked him bout it. He didn’t even get bitten. That thing just walked past him and now he has a huge scar from his hand to his elbow. Like a really long scar that I assumed that it was an accident wound. It practically itches like crazy. He got it last week. And now im close to freaking out cos my housemate saw it on her pillow the other day and im afraid that that thing would lay gazillions of eggs and attack all of us and we’ll all wake up with scars all over our body =S *gulp* I was dreaming bout it last nite. Lols

well, enough bout deadly insects. I wore my uitm batik today.lols

if u ask me why would I do such a thing. Well, the reason is pretty simple. My roommate & I are just too darn lazy to pick an outfit for today and if we did, we’ll end up staying up at night to wash our clothes. I don’t wana increase the amount of piles of clothes ive to wash. I wash by hand, ok. Its expensive and wasting my time to go wash it using the washing machine. Rm 2 for 7 kilos of clothes and it takes an hour for one wash. Uve to just sit there for an hour? Doing what?? Stare at the washing machine, looking at ur clothes spin simultaneously. Look at the person beside u and smile for the 10^th time in less than 20 minutes. Stare at my watch. Thinking that I would’ve used this time to blablabla…Zzzzz…not my cup of tea.

Wow, I wrote a lot today. Hahaha. My housemates are starting wonder how the hell can I write a freakin essay for my blog for almost everyday. And in English? Lols. It takes practice. Once I write, sometimes ive to remind myself to stop. and I know no one reads this but its like a satisfaction to write u know. It’s a form of expression. I need to start drawing too. Now I only draw body anatomy… for the sake of study, I will draw all of it with passion.

Ok, I guess that’s is for today class. Im done lecturing.haha

Love & miss all of ya,

M

u buat apa nih??!

i didnt feel like blogging last nite cos i was too lazy to open the lock on my bag,fix the cable and charger, then wait till the main page of yahoo to load. ill cuss under my breathe for a gazillionth time, then it'll start to function properly. or maybe not at all. yess...this is what they call internet connection here -_-" ive just found out that we r only allowed to enter youtube,myspace,facebook and other entertaiment related web pages on working hours only for mondays to fridays. weekends is unlimited =) but im always home by then. i miss home T-T
last weekend, we had LDK activities. it was 1/4 boring,1/4exciting, 1/4 brain,wash, 1/4 semangat kerjasama bdak2 uitm. meaning its like a mixture of everything. it wasnt that bad. there were fun games. well, there was this one part where we had to write a will. yup...ive to admit, i think i cried a whole river.lols. everyone did. the faci made us close our eyes and imagine that one day, maybe i had an accident and died before i get to see my parents and ask for their forgiveness. it was a really tough thing to imagine urself in. the whole class was quiet.some started to cry. i couldnt hold my tears when she played this indonesian song. u know how indonesians can get so religious in their songs rite.and the song was about death. sighs..
she asked us if we wanted to read our letter to the whole class. yeah rite! i wrote mine in eng + malay. they might look at me differently.yeah well, i kept the letter. hehe
ive so many to tell u guys but i cant. i need to sleep. ive therapeutic exercise,english and electrophysical agents tomorrow. need to revise the notes.
gosh, ive so much to tell! haih...
its the meaning behind this posts title and it includes a dude ^^ maybe later. ill meet u guys this weekend if i can and ill try to stay awake. ok?
bye.
love ya,
M

2 more weeks.

im beezay! and sleepay~ i was in d middle of doing a CITU(p'didikan islam) assignmt. my team-(which is my hsemates) have to do a presentation bout hukuman qisas. gosh, ive long forgotten bout all the hukums and facts and all that.sheeshh..i gota start brushing up on my agama. i cant imagine myself talking infront of 65 students. O.O
i know ill have the worst tummy olympics in the whole 18 yrs of my life. i hope i dont puke

~.~,
M

maknae's boom boom pow!

she totally rock the stage! shes only 16/17 yrs old and she could dance like that. im sooooo impressed.



im at home for while. thats y theres a youtube post here. i cant access to youtube in uitm,remember. so im just chillaxing for awhile. ill be back in uitm before 7pm. cos ive a koko meeting at 8.45pm. =(

what kind of underwear are you?

im friggin boxers! yeah!! ;)

Quizzes Girls Games

its my fourth quiz and i cant get enough of it. its fun. since im stuck here. what else would i do to pass the time other than do blogs and quizzes. the tip is dont do the boring ones. do the stupid quizzes cos it makes me lol when the results comes out.hehe =P

^^,
M

*yawns*

im already up since 5 am. i had to wake myself up to take my sahur. hmm..
and now i cant sleep. so i decided to try the net connection at 6 am. since normally it is just inconsiderably surrlooowwww. i think now its pretty ok.
im searching for fun quizzes to pass the time. i found 'which country are you from?'
im irish!! lols
the answer makes me laugh cos i had this incident before where back then (i think a few years ago.cant remember) i was soo into nora roberts circle trilogy books. it was so epic!! and the places in the books are mainly ireland and its obvious that the characters are speaking full irish rite. so i was really into that book till one day, i started to speak and have the same accent as them. hahaha. i still remember how irah was laughing her as off when she heard that. altho its like one of the most foolish things i would ever do and i i would repeatedly tell myself not to ever do it again but its still one of the memories that i would never forget. its just a stupid thing that only you and ur friend understand, ya know?
im gona go pray now. till then.
saranghae,
M

i wana be a polarbear..=(

its just not my day today. i x know. im feeling rather down and pissed bout alot of things. im starting to get grumpy. i think way too much now. and im startg to get REALLY ANNOYED with my laptop. i feel like smashing my head on the wall. the net connection here sucks! my laptop is so OKU. i need some distractions. if not, ill breakdown.soon. im tired.im exhausted and constantly hungry T-T and i cant simply eat cos i need to save money to survive cos theres no ATM here. i need sometime alone. i wana go into a deep sleep for 3 days. i need to freaking hibernate.
overall, today sucks.
maybe its just my hormones.lol. i need to stabilize it.
anyways, im gona start fasting tomorrow. ganti puasa.since theres no class 2mrw. im going home for awhile and get back here at night =,( *sobs*
ill get used to this soon. i hope.

M

buttcrack!

todays class was..umm..u know. always unexpected.u never know whos gonna be the next victim to be 'exposed' to the class.each day a new body part is revealed. im not joking. todays body part is the lower back which consist of glutemus maximus which is the scientific term of ze buttocks! lols. ok, just a quarter of it is revealed. all of the girls gasped. the guy(the male model) turned so red cos he didnt know the teacher was gona do that to him .he had a look like he was violated by that teacher. oh, i forgot to mention. ive an ehem..'australian' teacher. she sounds so poshhhh.. hahahahaha. shes not australian lah. shes malay (celup australian) she spaeks with such thick accent and always repeats the word "yeeahhh..." in every sentence. at first i couldnt even concentrate cos ive the urge to lmao when she speaks. when she ckp melayu pekat plak tu! haha.

my friends are startg to comment on my latest posts that i write malay more than usual. its scary man. ive to admit it is. cos im startg to think and form sentences in malay instead of english.my brain is like auto-malay. OMG*screams*
it does not sound like a bad thing rite? cos its my own roots and all. but u know, to me, i gota keep it all balanced. i cant just hang on to malay. its not complete. so, as a reminder, i take a few steps of precautions for myself to remain sane before i turn full auto-malay. first, ill try to find any source of english like form newspapers or net articles, story books and pay attention and participate in my BEL(english) class. 2nd, i try to converse with my friends in uni occasionally in english. they are willing to try. so, ill use these opportunities. next, ill write more in eng.like keep a journal or blog whenever i can. ill think of the others later. u guys can give me some tips too. pleaseee...

oh, another thing, since im like a city/suburban girl, im kinda like weird to my housemates here. im the only one who eats usg fork and spoon. (i cant help it. im sooo used to it.even at home) i dont understand or speak their slang/loghat. ill normally look at them with that really blur expression and then theyll know that i x get what they r sayg.whatelse? umm.. my mix nationalities= msia+s'pore. theyll ask bout how its like to live in the suburb area. which place to go shoppping. then they start talking bout their hometowns and kampungs which ive never been to.(never had a kampung in my 18 yrs of living in this planet) never terjun sungai, never ride motocycles, never walk in paddy fields, never eat tempoyak, budu, (the tradisional foods) never even taste some of the fruits theyve eaten. since they have orchards in their hometown.
they'll normally talk bout it and sometinmes teach me new kelantan terms. its so hard to pronounce! but i tried. i still fail. lols. they told me to teach them english. well,im not good with teaching but ill try.

well, i gota go now.
my roommate is continously yapping while im writing here. so i cant really concentrate. thus, the overflowing crapping. ok.
ive a taklimat in dewan angsana tonight at 8.45. and i havent showered. so..turra!

love ya,
m

im home..hmm..^^

im really sleepy now. but im trying to keep myself awake so that i can spend more time watching youtube.lols. im welcoming my 2nd newborn baby(new laptop) to the world~ =D
i think its okay for now. im still not used to it since its new. im scared if i press smthng it will go haywire.haha. like just now when i pressed the wrong button and it went to hybernation mode. it totally scared me.hahaha..
i read the manual and it doesnt say much.especially bout which button i should press to control the volume.it was starting to piss me off but i had to remain calm. dahlah ngantok kan. mmg testing my patience btul.

so anyways,ive just had one week of classes. im taking 7 subjects i think. so far, anatomy and physiology is the toughest, ive to start studyg like crazy from now cos the final exam will be coming soon.maybe lpas raya. the lecturers told us that we have to score high marks for sem 1 & 2 so that our CGPA for sem 3 wudnt be in such a bad shape. cos sem 3 wud be tough as hell (THAT they informed us too..-_-")
thanks for the warning.
im starting to get restless due to mosquto bites here. so, i gtg

ciao,
m

sorry my posts are startg to get boring. i did warn ya guys-random updates rite.

maybe going home this weekend.

lepak kat bilik izyan ni.. i dont have any class today. im planning to clean and tidy up my room. again -_-" makan awal sgt plak. habis class tadi pkul 9.20. awal sgt. ive no idea what to do now other than read the comics my sis left me. my housemates are startg to read it too. yelah, theres no entertainment at all! we cant even go out unless someone comes and pick us up here. duduk kat puncak ni mmg sedih lah. too far from the town areas. xde keje ni lepak jelah kat rumah org lain.
i dont even have a laptop. im constantly whining on my blog. please understand and bare with me.
gtg now. guna pc org kna berpada2.hehe

c ya,
m

aku ada 'life' ke ni?

hey guys. it feels like forever since i last updated.. i admit life without net is so lonely. and the day drags even longer. dahlah stuck kat rural area.lols. seriously sedih ..T-T although they say that it has lots of advantages rather than disadvantages like for example its surrounded by trees. hence, the brain functions better? apa jelah. byk facilities xde. it feels like jail now but i guess when evrything is complete it wont be so bad.
anyways, enough whining.
i have an infatuation already.hehehehe.. ill tell ya guys later.

see you end of this week. maybe..

ttyl,
m